在你之外

你生日﹐和另外一對一起吃飯。

我們是一對嗎﹖不是﹐我們是好朋友。

今天做了 manicure and pedicure, 淺褐色大格子洋裝﹐走向在 bar 外面抽煙等待的你﹔
你看到我﹐微笑。
"Nice dress!" 你說
"Thanks~" 我很高興。她說過這套洋裝讓曲線格外明顯﹐success.
你說中午和你的 potential boyfriend 見面﹐聊天聊得不錯
"i realize that attraction grows as you get to know the other person better."
是嗎﹖我想。抬頭看到你看著我的眼睛。

朋友來了﹐我們入內就座﹐我的膝蓋若有似無的碰著你的膝蓋。
喝酒﹐吃飯﹐微醺。
趁你去洗手間的時候和朋友 "討論戰策"
"Do you guys think he is interested?"
"Yes he is. He kept looking at you and he flirts.
I forgot what we were talking about, but he was jealous."
"Oh yeah?"
"Yeah, make him jealous"

那還不簡單。

你回來﹐我們開始聊起我的同事 --- 一個想上我想了很久的人
我說唉怎麼樣才好呢﹖我現在也很想跟他見面﹐而且 he is so cute.
可是我不想太主動, blah blah blah
你說 "Well, you need to make a guy think that you're interested so that he is in control.
There is a fine line between playing hard to get and not interested at all"
我說可是我怕一聯絡就很明顯啊﹐那他就可以以逸待勞了。
你說 "but that's only in your head! You do this so much!"
是嗎﹖原來就是因為這樣你之前才那麼若即若離。
你說 "ok, i'm going to translate for you. Talk to me as if you're that guy"
"ok...how are you?"
"I want your **!!"
大家笑成一團。

太極拳打了半天﹐我加了一句
"可是我有其他喜歡的人啊。就是因為很喜歡所以不知道要怎麼辦。"
"Just tell him! and dont play games" three people said.
你又看著我﹐說"but sometimes you need to put it on the line.
Even if you don't get the response you want, but then that's not your problem"
你停一陣﹐說 "I like your nails."
呵呵

朋友們很合作的一起去洗手間﹐我轉頭看你。
"你知不知道我說的是誰呢﹖"
"If i say yes, i look like an asshole, but if i say no, then i'm a dumb ass"
"Just say it."
你揭露答案﹐但是也看著我說 "You can't just say no when i approach you,
and then say yes again 10 minutes after i leave.
The fact is neither of us can force it."
我沒說什麼﹐只是輕輕的吻著你的臉頰﹐很輕很輕﹐我的文字和動作都是。
"I'm sorry. I just need time to react. It happened really fast for me."
然後呢﹐我們開始接吻了.

第一次吻你的回憶已經消失﹐只記得唇際一直留著摩擦你鬍渣的感覺。
第二次吻你不過上禮拜﹐然則一起都那麼快速
啊這次﹐好棒好棒。你的唇很男人﹐硬硬的﹐連舌頭也是﹐有力靈活。
我在你耳邊告訴你 what i think about when i though myself and when i see your fingers
You groaned "Oh that's so hot." 然後你的手探過來摸我。
隔桌的客人已經在斜眼看我們
"I think we need to realize that we're in the public." 一向很在乎自己形像的你說
"really?" 我餵你一顆冰塊﹐湊過去咬耳朵 "oh i'm so sorry that they're not getting right now,
that they're just going back to their obese husband and kids."
你大笑 "you're so funny."

邊吻﹐邊告訴你我的害怕﹐
你說 "I promise that, at least for now, i'll never use our attraction against you.
You know i'm a genuine person."
我好高興。
"I can't promise about guys, but i can tell you that i never look at other girls on the street.
I'm a very selective person."
"You probably won't like this, but i told me sister about what happened, and she said
that if it were her, she would have lied down. I also talked to my roommate about you.
You see? I think about you a lot."
"You've been an amazingly good influence in my life and you probably think that that's
the only reason i like you. The fact is that you're wrong."

You went so far as to talk about your jealousy.

"hey but you're going to get married next year."

朋友回來了﹐但是我們還是一直接吻﹐一直喝酒。
手一直放在你大腿內側﹐偶爾往上移。 and you really like it.
"Touch it." 你說 "It's getting hard."
我的手很酸﹐這個角度實在很不方便﹐but i like what i touched.
你湊過來說 "I've been staring down your bra. You should be proud.
So many guys couldn't make me as hard as you do.
I'm going to thrust again and again until you can't take it anymore."
你的手不停想伸下去﹐but i'm shy.
"Let me touch it." you whispered.
You could tell i was soaked.

你去洗手間﹐然後我跟著去。
等你出來﹐"剛好"碰到你。
We kissed and kissed. You put your hands on me, rubbing and pushing.
可是樓梯間有聲響﹐我們立刻分開﹐laughed.

之後呢﹖我們不停 make out, 可也許我太明顯﹐用計過度﹐
We didn't do as anything, even though you moaned so loud when
i felt you up and kissed your ears. Even when you told me that neither
Pavan or Chris can make you as aroused.

"I think i'm straight." 你說

身上還有你的香味﹐可是沒結果的故事我要怎麼寫﹖。